OK ... so here I am, waiting on an answer from God. I'm not pacing the floor, or anything like that, but it is really (and I mean REALLY) hard having to wait for Him to give me an answer. But ... WHY is it so hard?
Perhaps it's because we live in a 'fast-food' society. We get answers to our "Google" searches in 0.47 seconds (or less)... we get frustrated if our food isn't at the 2nd window when we get there at McDonald's ... DVR's have made it so we can watch an hour-long show in under 40 minutes ... and microwaved food can be ready in under 3 minutes for a 12-course meal!
I am not the most impatient of people ... but I still don't like having to wait. I get this anxious feeling in the middle of my chest ... I have a hard time concentrating on things that need to get done ... I can't sleep very well, and I'm a bit on-edge. Hmmm ... doesn't sound too healthy, does it?
Why do I allow myself to get this way? I guess part of it is the whole "I'm human" thing ... but it's more than that. Part of it is an "eager anticipation" for what the answer may be (IF the answer is the one that I want, that is!). It may be a dread of what the answer may be (if it ISN'T the one that I want).
God has it all in His hands ... I've got that. I know that. I don't have any problem with that. He even tells us that we need to wait on Him ... "Wait on the Lord: Be of good courage, and He will strengthen your heart: Wait, I say, on the Lord." (Psalm 27:14) So ... if I know that ... WHY do I have such a hard time waiting?!
I guess there is something I need to work on ... PATIENCE. Again - I'm not really an impatient person for the most part - but when it comes to waiting for an answer from the Lord ... I guess I am more on the impatient side of things. I know a couple of things about patience ... 1) it's a virtue 2) NEVER EVER EVER pray for it 3) God even addresses it - "For the things that were written before were written for our learning that we, through patience and comfort of the scriptures, might have hope." (Romans 15:4)
So ... let me make sure I've got this right. In the Old Testament, God told us to wait on Him - and in the New Testament, He tells us that He told us that in Psalms so that we can learn from it and have hope. Got it.
So, I will stop being impatient and trust in the Lord to answer my prayer in His timing. After all ... He hasn't made a mistake yet - so, I'm pretty sure He knows what's best for me!
Thanks for joining me on this little educational tangent ... I've learned something, and hope you have, too!